very ugly meh?

hmph! im offended by someone in the office. she said i should grow back my fringe and not cut it short. very ugly meh? do i really not suit the short fringe? previously when i cut it i thought it was nice on me. but now, because of what she said, i am not confident about my fringe already. so embarrassing!! she said it in front of my colleagues!! you see la... how to face the others already?

but when i ask rx, he said its fine leh. this is the first time he actually said something nice. so it cant be that bad right? sigh.. now i really have no mood to work now. how i wish work can end very fast soon, i wanna spring a surprise on rx cos he just started his new job today. wanna see how he looks like with his tie and his new hairdo.

okayyysss.. im off to work AGAIN. bleah..

a new bang!

good afternoon everybody!!

i've got myself a new haircut. haha.. its a new straight fringe like a goondoo, but i like~! darling and i went to cut our hair yesterday and he looked so young n good now. just in time for his new job tomorrow. everything's like quite settled. hope he'll continue and work in this company for 3 months and above!! and on the process, get to visit numerous beautiful and luxurious homes. all the way darling!

after this haircut, i think my mood is not too bad. i came to work today feeling chirpy, hope it will continue to be like that for this whole week. but darling will need to work on saturdays starting this week. can only see him after 8pm. :( never mind, i'll also have aumni practices in the afternoon so its still not too bad. can play mahjong with vanessa after that too.

alright guys, i'll get to work again. see ya!!

barry, all the best for your army days. we shall be waiting for you to book on weekends. we'll think of you definitely. :)

i am not what i want to be

life is not always perfect. when i want something so badly, it just wont come to me. life has never been a bed of roses for me. i need to consider for a long time when out shopping, i need to see if i will have enough cash to last me the month, i cant spend alot and when i bring back my purchases, my mom will just nag.

ever since i graduated from TP 2 weeks ago, names of universities have been appearing in my mind. should i continue study anot? full-time or part-time for me? which degree should i get? how to settle my school fees? i still have not called DBS on how i am going to settle my loans for my tertiary study. you see.. money is not everything but without money, you cant just do a lot of things. shall i sell my butcok instead? sighhhh.. my sis has been nagging me to not study full-time since we are not well-to-do to indulge me to study full-time. you get the point? they want you to further study, have a bright future and not tire myself out but my current situation just doesn't allow me to. in the end, i gave up. i've decided to work full-time for a couple of years first to gain experience. hey! i did not make a compulsive decision, this decision was reached after several serious discussions with my friends and cousins. let just keep my fingers crossed that i'll be able to find a full-time job soon.

why am i short? why am i dark? why do i have single eyelids? why are my thighs so fat and big? why do i have cellulite? i always hope that i'll slim down my thighs but the thought of having to exercise just make me put off the idea. is there any way whereby i can slim my thighs down without having to exercise? can someone please tell meee???? :( i cant buy nice dresses to wear, nice shorts to flatter my legs cos my legs dont appeal to people, i cant wear suspenders, i cant wear nice short denim skirts, i cant wear converse sneakers so nicely with denim skirts!! you see.. im such a letdown.

can anyone tell me how to be beautiful? or just boost my morale? :(